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Starting Over

Tuesday, June 9, 2015
"The goal's always simple: to push myself. Past discomfort, into pain. Outlast the pain. aim for numbness. To come out the other side...feeling a little destroyed. Then I know I've won." ~ Cait Chock.

I ran this morning.

While it wasn't far - only a couple of miles - it was the first time in a while that I'd been out on a solo run. I've actually grown accustomed to running with others. Despite that, I crawled out of the comfort of my bed at 3:00 this morning. I drank some coffee, slowly got dressed, and at 4:00 am I wandered out into the humid darkness and ran.

I destroyed myself while proving one thing - I need to get out of my head.

 I feel like I'm starting over again. Not quite at the beginning but close enough. I can push through a long run but I need to reestablish my base - my foundation. I need to overcome the little voice in my head that says - run tomorrow and you're not capable of faster. The very same voice that says I can't go further.

I need to destroy it the way I destroyed myself this morning.

Time to get back to my old routine.

Coffee is calling...

Until next time. Love, Theresa.

3 comments on "Starting Over"
  1. 3 AM IS A TIME TO GO TO BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Seriously though, nice job (and will power) on getting up and doing it! (Though seriously, it is a bed time.) Out of curiosity, did you find you ran faster than you have grown accustomed to today?

    1. It was ridiculous. I planned on an easy 10 min mile around my neighborhood. I took the 3/4 mile up hill climb faster than I did the down hill at an 8:30. I now understand why I felt like death at the top of the hill.

  2. You inspire me every damn time. Can I borrow your head for a bit?